Today My Heart Cracked Wide Open

When your heart breaks open it’s an indescribable experience. It’s almost impossible to put into words. Almost, I say because there’s a book that did an amazing job doing just that. I’ll tell you a little about that book plus I’m going to share a story about how the Divine helped me get to this new level of heart opening. Both are oh so beautifully tied together.

It began with little Sacred Messengers showing up in my life, like bread crumbs leading to the ginger bread house of greater insight and love. They started appearing in response to a request I had made.  I had asked my Divine helpers to help me experience a deeper connection with the Divine and all that is. But, other than what I’d already been doing (praying, meditating, journaling, self REiki, etc.), I wasn’t sure how to go about it. So I gave it over to them.

It Begins with Heart Healing Surprises

Shortly there after, I was inspired to purchase Heart Healing Flower Essences by Botanical Alchemy (I sell this locally for $17, the same price as on their website). I started taking 7 drops in the morning and the evening. And, boy did that create a few surprises!

I started having dreams about my former husband and his girlfriend and old fears of the devil and demons surfaced. My inner psyche was clearly purging deeper layers. But it was wasn’t scary, it was actually amazing. Thanks to the deeper healing work I’ve been doing the last few years and a greater connection to Spirit, as of all this came up, so did additional insights as well as greater levels of love, healing, and understanding. The Divine was literally shifting my perspective. I suddenly felt freer than ever before.

The Code Plants a Seed and Provides Me With a Clue

The next little Sacred Messenger occurred when I stumbled upon The Moses Code on gaia.com. The premise of the video is that when Moses asked God its name it said I AM THAT I AM and what was missing was a comma. The phrase I AM THAT I AM then becomes I AM THAT, I AM. If you say this slowly as you look around you, you’ll see how this shifts your perspective a bit. For me it affirmed that I am everything I see and experience. I am that …and that … and that. Everything, no exceptions. It’s easy to feel this when I’m looking at butterflies and birds, but not so easy when I’m looking at a child molester or a murderer.

A Heart Opening Crescendo

My new friend Debbie Wryes was the next Sacred Messenger when she told me about a beautiful poetic book she had just finished called Crescendo. It’s written by Amy Weiss, a talented author, licensed clinical social worker, and the daughter of the psychotherapist and past life regressionist, Dr. Brian Weiss.

I finished the last pages of the book this morning and immediately gave it this 5-star review on amazon.com:

A Breathtaking Work of Art and Soul: It’s difficult to put into words the depths and heights this book took me to. As a past life regressionist and ACIM student, this book somehow brought to crisp beautiful life my belief and view of our experience here on earth and beyond as spiritual beings. I deeply ached through the grief and wept through the love. I finally saw with greater clarity that love is even inside grief, inside everything, it’s really all there is … just love expressing its soul in a million, billion ways. This book is a breathtaking work of art and soul.”

As you can see by my review I was deeply moved by this book. It’s gorgeous to read, poetically written with an musical theme that is beautifully woven throughout the book. And chalk full of gems that sparkle and resonate, such as:

“She had been wrong about songs of loss. There are no such things. It is not possible to lose someone when he is you. And it is not possible to lose yourself when you are everywhere.”

“But there is too much focus on this, on this differentiating. As if there were any distinction between stone and cell and song, between man and molecule. As if they weren’t a single soul in a single moment experiencing a single life in innumerable ways. As if the point of evolution were to branch off into many, rather than to find the way back to the one.”

“She had been wrong about love songs too. They are not what you sing when you have found another person., but when you have found one of the million missing pieces of yourself.”

The book ends with its own building crescendo and that crescendo created a crack in my heart….

My Heart Breaks Open on a Walk

After finishing the book this morning, I got dressed and took my dog Sienna out for her walk. As I was walking, the phrase “I AM THAT, I AM” resurfaced. It tied so beautifully with Crescendo’s message. I am everything I see, in every single moment. I am that pretty little butterfly. I am that dead and sadly smooshed turtle. I am that lush green tree. I am the clouds. I am the empty bottles and cans that people leave on this beautiful path. I am the smiling man and his tail-wagging puppy golden retriever that stops to say hello to Sienna. I am the smile. I am the puppy’s open hearted friendliness. I am the paved path I walk on. I am the crow calling overhead. I am the dragonfly that flies in front me. I am all of that. And it is me.

And then I felt it… my heart cracked wide open. I had to stop walking because tears were blurring my vision. I felt indescribable waves of connection with everything around me. No separation. Only LOVE mirroring itself back at me in a million different ways.

It is my deepest wish that you too know and experience the love that you are today.